` Loving euu___

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Today went to do CIP at Bukit Merah Library with Glenda and Lynn ...
Slack alot today ... Haix ... First time do CIP i slack ...
Slack not for half an hour ... Slack for almost 2 hours ...
Spent most of the time reading and talking ...
And then walk around ... then we went home ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Thursday, May 24, 2007

KSJ was finally over ...
Could say i finished it rather fast ...
In 10 mins ... I finished ...
I was thinking ...'' Oh my god ... I actually finished ??? And the paper was so easy ...''
Then i looked at Glenda ... Still doing ... '' Ok ... I don't disturb you ... '' I thought ...
Then i looked at the clock ... '' Hmm ... 15 mins more ... I think i shall re-cap my KSJ notes ...''
And i actually did !!!
Then I checked my papers ... And at that time ... I can say that i will get 3 wrong answers ...
But after that ... When we finished and went to the main hall , i asked Glenda , Gabriel and Chin Fung about their answer for question 4 ... Glenda's answer is A ... Chin Fung's answer is B ... My answer is C ... [Which i guessed ... Cause i don't know the answer ...] And Gabriel guessed too ...
The question is : Who is the current St John Council's chairman ?
Then we saw this board which wrote the chairman for St John Ambulance Brigade , Association and Council ... And my answer is correct ... I was so lucky ... Cause last year during the St John's Camp ... Simone Sir said the name of the chairman before ... And i could slightly remember that the chairman doesn't have a Prof or a Dr in front of the name ... The name starts directly like Mr , Mrs or Miss ... Anyway no point thinking so much now ... Its already over ... Now what can i do is to wait for my results to come out ... In about two months later ???
Hahas ... But i am willing to wait to see how i fare ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Today i am going mad ... Insane and also very angry ...
Insane cause of the KSJ ... THIS SAT AND I CAN'T REMEMBER HALF OF IT !!!!!
Angry ... Don't want to mention ... Was angry in school ... And at home ...
HOW COME YOU ALL JUST WON'T LET ME LIVE IN PEACE FOR JUST ... ONLY JUST ... ONE DAY ?!?!?!
If i am the sort who will say vulgarities as and when i like and when i think of it ...
I will definitely say it ...
But i am not the kind ...
Give me a minute to cool down and stop ______ ...
* Something that i don't want you all to know ...
Ok ... Don't talk about it anymore ... All i can say is that i am miserable , sad , angry , insane and i have just died ... Not physically but mentally ... I have just lost my soul ... My life ... My smile ... My cheerfulness ... Now i am left in a world of misery ... Sadness ... Totally lost in darkness ...
Is it just that i studied too hard for the KSJ or i studied too hard for the exams ??? But it couldn't be possible that i studied too hard for the exams ... Cause i failed my expectations ...
It is more convincing to say that i studied too hard for KSJ but not true ... I studied and studied but i just can't remember studied ... No use ... So it is not possible too ...
If it is not the reasons above , then what is the reason ???

My life is over ...
My life is done ...
I wish that someone will take me away ...
To a land called heaven or to the land called hell ...
I just don't want to carry on here in this land called earth ...

My road has ended ...
Right here ...
Nothing to let me carry on ...
There is a diamond wall right infront of me ...
Unbreakable ...
Uncuttable ...
Or there is just a dead end ...
Or a never-ending hole just right infront of me ...
Which if i were to dropped in ...
I will never ...
Never reach the end ...
Who will knows when will i die ...
My road just ended ...
Here ...
This moment ...
I am just standing here ...
Waiting for someone to push me down into the endless pit ...
Waiting for someone to help me ...
To pull me up ...
Is there ???
No ...
No one ...
No one at all ...
No one to help me ...
Shall i just go and end my life ???
Or shall i wait for someone to bring me ???
To heaven ???
Or to hell ???
Anything ...
I don't mind ...
As long as it is not a land called earth ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Monday, May 21, 2007

Today we got to know our results ...
Failed 3 ...
Passed 3 ...
Out of the 6 subjects ... I only got 2 'A1' ... 2 'E8' ... 1 'F9' ... and 1 'C6' ...
Instead of improving ... I actually deprove ... DEPROVE !!!
Cried the whole Chinese lesson ... Not really cry ... But was tearing ... Or slient cry i would rather call it ... Just let the tears 'run' down from my eyes ...
Then recess ... 4th and 5th Jiejies , Meimei and me went to the fitness corner ...
And you could guess what me and meimei do there ???
We cried ... And cried ... Cause we failed our expectations ...
After recess ... Went to check more papers ...
Then after that ... When school ends ... We, Gabriel, Glenda, Lynn and me, went to BMC to get something to eat or drink ...
Then on the way back to school ... Remembered that we need to see Mr Wun for the consent form for the duty on sunday ... Ran back to school ... Called Kimhung and we ran up to the staff room ... Can't find Mr Wun ... When we turn, Mr Wun was walking to the staff room ... So went to him and ask about it ... Then he say today meeting cancelled ... Change to tommorow ...
So we went to the slope there ... Then saw Hui Xian ... So went outside the General Office [G.O] to find her ... But she was not there ... So saw Nisa ... She is going to topup the First Aid boxs with the help of Xue Ping ... So Glenda and me followed ...
Went to the St John room and found two First Aid boxs missing ... Search high and low for it in the room ... But still cannot find ... So go find the two TICs and ask for help ...
But who knows that our missing First Aid boxs are in the dear St John room ... Inside one of the unopened cupboard ...
Then topup the First Aid boxs and went to the Physics Lab to put our bags ... And also helped Mrs Tan ... Then the lesson starts ... Very boring ... 2.30pm to 5.00pm ...
After the lesson ... We went outside G.O to talk ...
Then went home at about 5.54pm ... Walked home from the backgate ... To 7-11 ... Lynn go and buy something then we went home ...
I go home ... First thing is got scolding ... Then got another scolding ... I really should die last week ... So i don't know anything about my results ... Nothing at all ... Now i've lost my smile ... Lost my cheerful self ... Lost it to the world of sadness, misery, dullness and meaningless ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Today is somehow boring ... Went for the revision today for the KSJ [Knowledge of The Order of St John] ... Got lots of points to study ... Its no ordinary points to study ... Its HISTORY !!! All the way from AD600 !!! Not only that ... We still have to study the history of St John in Singapore and in England ... All the way from 1831 to now ... But the latest date we need to know is 1996 ... so that's lucky ... To pass is no easy thing ... We have to get at least 60% then we will be considered as pass ... only 50 questions ... 1 mark for each correct answer ...and the duration is 25 minutes only ... but luckily it is all MCQs ... But there is one point i don't have to remember ... the last point from the 'Cadet Code Of Chivalry' ... It is 'To Be Kind To Animals' ... When we , Glenda , Gabriel , Kim Hung , Chin Fung and me , heard this , we burst out laughing ... Cause if you have seen my previous blogskin ... Then you will know why ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Today is the day that we finish our mid-year exams ... Going to fail my Maths and Chinese ...

Saying a big 'Sorry' to those i promised to pass my chinese ... Really sorry ... I will try to pass the next time ... I hope ...

Tommorow the sec 3s and 4s still having their last mid-year exam papers ... Jia you !!!

So we don't have to go school ... We are going to do cip at Bukit Merah Library ... Meeting Lynn at 9+ then go eat breakfast and meet Glenda , Keng Siew and Gabriel at 10 outside Bukit Merah Library ...

Talking to Lynn about something and that reminds us of the camp ... Don't want to talk about it ... Feel like crying ...

We expect nothing in return...

But at least we want to keep this group going...

You all are making us disbaning this group...

By leaving the old times and locking us in a cage full of forgotten memorise...

If we disband the group you all will say it is our fault and it is us who makes it fall apart...

But ask yourself if you ever unlock this old,forgotten cage of memories?

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Just remembered that i love this picture ... Lolerrs forever !!!
I am so stress today ... Cause i want to pass all subjects ... Especially Chinese and Maths ... Today i broke a record ... First time i wrote till 328 words for my Chinese compo ... English compo i think i will have many marks deducted ... Too many words i think ... Haix ... Going to die for my Maths ... Going to fail i think ... But must stay positive ... Going to pass with flying colours ... Chinese must pass ... Or else i will be letting down the people i promise them that i will pass my Chinese ... Tommorow will be Geography and Maths paper 1 ... Must go and study now ... Or i will finish at 1 or 2 pm ...

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`

Friday, May 04, 2007

haix ... today is a very boring day ... nothing to do after school ... and dun want to go home ... so stayed in school with Glenda , Lynn , Kim Hung and Aaron ... ( for your information , if you dun know who is Aaron , he is Xiao Gui ...) we stayed till about 3+ then Aaron went home ... so left Lynn , Glenda and Kim Hung ...

not long after Aaron go home , we played on the sit-up thing , which is spoiled and was so rocky , for quite a long time ... then i have a headache , which i have from morning when i woke till now , so i didn't play the second one ... it is a ride ... Glenda and Lynn were playing so happily ... then we went home at 5 pm ... reach home ... so sian ... nothing to do ... oh ya ... the question i ask last time i blog ... the answer is 10 ... why 10 ??? cause the owner of the fish didn't take out the dead fish ... -.- ''' ... so lame ... so how many of you got the correct answer ???

waiting for euu, my boyy
lovin you always`